Journal of My Joblessness!- 23 August (Tuesday)

Making it up as I go along..
When I first stopped working, I spent quite a bit of time coming up with a structured plan of what I would accomplish during my time off work. While I guess this was partly to make sure that I got the most out of the experience (instead of spending all my time with my hand down my pants), I realize that another reason I did this was because I wanted to show those around me that I had my shit together.
I didn't (and don't) want people, particularly my friends, to look at me like a loser without a job. While I realize that this is shallow, the truth is that I don't really have a long-term plan currently and I don't know how to get one. I'm just making things up as I go along, and to be honest that's alright for now.
Things done:
- Workout at Fitness First followed by a nice, strong coffee in their Member's lounge. I wonder if the fact that I don't pay membership fees makes it taste better, but I really enjoy that coffee. Great start to the day!
- Arranged for a Cat & the Fiddle cake to be sent over to Kevin and Jess for their anniversary. Salted Caramel. Yum!
- Lunch with Edwin. Good to meet him again as a jobless person. As expected, he had the usual 'I wish I could take a break like you' reaction, while focusing only on the positives of my situation. But he was refreshingly open to discussing potential jobs within and outside of the LNG space. Kudos to him and I owe him for the great kway teow.
- Continued working on the 20 questions for the MDS interview process. I feel that at the end of this process the interviewers may know me better than Lisa does, or frankly even better than I know myself!
- Dinner with Lisa at Lakeside. Unfortunately the evening was marred by the fact that I behaved like a child and got annoyed at how simple our evening was. I should really learn to let things go, not get pressured by my own expectations and most importantly, to enjoy my time with people, especially those dear to me.
Lessons Learnt: I don't have to have all the answers at this point. In fact I may never have them. And rather than fight that fact, shouldn't I work on just getting comfortable with it?
I should use my time off to strengthen my relationship with Lisa. I hope to make our coming years even better than our previous two years together have been.